In The Demons’ Head: What is Your Biggest Fear?
April 14, 2017
The lights are dark, you feel the hair on the back of your neck stand up. You’re aware that they are in the house, hell you hear the footsteps as they come up the stairs. Is it a person, or a spirit, hell you don’t know. Your cuddled under your blanket and trying to peek over the top of it like a six year old. Terrified. But then again, death isn’t your biggest fear is it?
April 14, 2017
The lights are dark, you feel the hair on the back of your neck stand up. You’re aware that they are in the house, hell you hear the footsteps as they come up the stairs. Is it a person, or a spirit, hell you don’t know. Your cuddled under your blanket and trying to peek over the top of it like a six year old. Terrified. But then again, death isn’t your biggest fear is it?
Hello and welcome to another edition of “In The Demons’ Head” I’m Kyle Robinson and today I’m going to be writing a post that is a bit personal for me as I’m trying to talk a little about things that personally scare the hell out of me. Now, on the surface, I’m a horror writer, with a taste of the supernatural, you probably think there’s not a lot that scares me but the fact is, there are a few things, and they may surprise you.
First off let me get a couple of things out of the way. I’m blind as fuck, in all honesty I’m surprised I’m still allowed to drive. That’s not to say that I’m dangerous or anything like that, but the fact is when it rains outside and it’s dark, well I shouldn’t be behind the wheel. But at the end of the day, I can still see enough to put these words on paper. I love doing this, don’t get it twisted, I don’t do this as a means of a release like some people. I’m not trying to do this to create a quick buck. I genuinely enjoy writing and I love communicating with people about their experiences. If I were completely blind theres’ no way in hell I’d be able to still do this to the level that I’m doing it now. Which really sucks. So one of my biggest fears is going completely blind.
The second huge fear that I have in terms of realistic fears is that of dementia. I know that it’s possible, but along with my sight, I have a bad memory already. So I’m scared to death that I’ll be sitting there one day trying to write a story or a blog, and I’ll forget what I’m doing in the middle of the session I’m in. Stephen King once told the story of a writer who was looking out a window and forgot what a tree was called. Something that still haunts me, that’s because my mind is one of my best qualities I believe. If it goes, I’m not sure what I’d have left in a lot of cases.
Fear drives us to make the decisions that we make in one form or another. The other fear is that I’ll continue to write these words for people like this and they’ll never get discovered. I’m scared that at 75 I’ll still be as unknown as I am now. I know how stupid, and to a degree vein as that sounds but I’m not trying to get that. It’s quite the opposite. I’m afraid that I’ll waste away spending all this time while trying to introduce the world to my writing. And at the end not enough people are interested enough to read that it leads me to end up never making it.
After reading through that, It’s likely that you’re going to believe that my fears are irrational. You might be right, but at the same time they are my fears not yours. Which means that your fears might come across as maybe a little irrational to some. So with that said I want to start a little something, I want to ask you, what is your biggest fear. Stupid or not, share it. Who knows acknowledging the fear might be enough to help you rid yourself of that fear completely. Give it a shot, what could it hurt?
Next week I’m going to be talking about how I come up with some of my ideas as I gear up to start a brand new novel. I’ll discuss the birth of an idea in my head and what I do to try and stretch it into an actual project format. Until the next time you want to take a trip through the gates of hell and into the demons’ head, I’m Kyle Robinson wishing you a safe trip back to the surface.
Hello and welcome to another edition of “In The Demons’ Head” I’m Kyle Robinson and today I’m going to be writing a post that is a bit personal for me as I’m trying to talk a little about things that personally scare the hell out of me. Now, on the surface, I’m a horror writer, with a taste of the supernatural, you probably think there’s not a lot that scares me but the fact is, there are a few things, and they may surprise you.
First off let me get a couple of things out of the way. I’m blind as fuck, in all honesty I’m surprised I’m still allowed to drive. That’s not to say that I’m dangerous or anything like that, but the fact is when it rains outside and it’s dark, well I shouldn’t be behind the wheel. But at the end of the day, I can still see enough to put these words on paper. I love doing this, don’t get it twisted, I don’t do this as a means of a release like some people. I’m not trying to do this to create a quick buck. I genuinely enjoy writing and I love communicating with people about their experiences. If I were completely blind theres’ no way in hell I’d be able to still do this to the level that I’m doing it now. Which really sucks. So one of my biggest fears is going completely blind.
The second huge fear that I have in terms of realistic fears is that of dementia. I know that it’s possible, but along with my sight, I have a bad memory already. So I’m scared to death that I’ll be sitting there one day trying to write a story or a blog, and I’ll forget what I’m doing in the middle of the session I’m in. Stephen King once told the story of a writer who was looking out a window and forgot what a tree was called. Something that still haunts me, that’s because my mind is one of my best qualities I believe. If it goes, I’m not sure what I’d have left in a lot of cases.
Fear drives us to make the decisions that we make in one form or another. The other fear is that I’ll continue to write these words for people like this and they’ll never get discovered. I’m scared that at 75 I’ll still be as unknown as I am now. I know how stupid, and to a degree vein as that sounds but I’m not trying to get that. It’s quite the opposite. I’m afraid that I’ll waste away spending all this time while trying to introduce the world to my writing. And at the end not enough people are interested enough to read that it leads me to end up never making it.
After reading through that, It’s likely that you’re going to believe that my fears are irrational. You might be right, but at the same time they are my fears not yours. Which means that your fears might come across as maybe a little irrational to some. So with that said I want to start a little something, I want to ask you, what is your biggest fear. Stupid or not, share it. Who knows acknowledging the fear might be enough to help you rid yourself of that fear completely. Give it a shot, what could it hurt?
Next week I’m going to be talking about how I come up with some of my ideas as I gear up to start a brand new novel. I’ll discuss the birth of an idea in my head and what I do to try and stretch it into an actual project format. Until the next time you want to take a trip through the gates of hell and into the demons’ head, I’m Kyle Robinson wishing you a safe trip back to the surface.